I am trying to work out why some comments are published automatically and others seem to need my approval. Is this something that the author of the comments controls or me. So somewhat confused on that one!
It is exactly 3:48am as I write which I guess means I have an attack of insomnia. Which sometime happens bizarrely when I am overtired.
Yesterday I had the pleasure of being stuck in a lift oh yes I mean pleasure as was rescued by 7 burly firemen!!!! I would elaborate on the story but have rung friends and relatives with the excitement and detail, that I have albeit run out of the ins and the outs of it all. Not being over keen on lifts I am pleased to say I did not panic!!! So mega proud of myself. What is it about Firemen!! 2 Fire engines, sirens the lot. The only thing I will say is that my parent's will not be buying the apartment which we were viewing!!! I wonder why?
A lot has been going on in family life, most of which I can't write here as that would involve breaking confidences and I won't do that. I wanted to so much but sometimes its just not appropriate.
I enjoyed my week with the little man, who wanted to stay longer and my whole heart goes out to Veronica from Sleepless Nights who has young children. As a step grandmother with EDS a week with the little man was fantastic for so many reasons but I am absolutely and completely exhausted. As ever other half did not take time off so we were left to our own devices.
As I am carless at present in a way this meant we were free to just be us together in our little world of conversations. Some of which were enlightening. J is fascinated at the moment by the Police and wanted to know why he saw no Police whilst he stayed with us in the countryside. So we talked a lot about city life versus country life.
I am getting my car in apprx 10 weeks which is a long wait but worth it. A teeny weenie Peugeot automatic. As the children are all but grown and one of them drives the other just about to start learning I don't need a big car anyway. this is an automatic as the EDS prevents me from driving a manual. It will apparently do 60 miles to the thingy! Thank you to my parents for this gift words cannot describe how much their generosity means to me.
The wait apparently is the same for all new cars - that are small. I thought the recession meant that there were rows of hundreds of them waiting to be bought! My ancient car is to go for scrappage under the Government scheme so that means we were able to get £2000 off the price of Peugeot. Thank you parents thank you for the rest. I am unable to work and husband works hard hard hard we just cannot run to a new car and for me this will be a dream as it will not need an mot for three years!!!!!!!! I feel guilty really as I am completely motorway phobic and shhh don't tell anyone really do avoid large roundabouts. But I am determined to be a little more adventurous this time round. Husband drives a large 4 wheel Volvo which he needs for work purposes to keep equipment in and it serves well for longer journeys also as it is comfortable.
by way of confession i keep thinking I need a wheelchair - this is in the category of not discussing out loud with anyone apart from here obviously. I could not perambulate one myself due to shoulder and hand elbow issues so would need an electric one. My little car would probably not accommodate one of these. How do I tell husband I just don't think my legs can hold me up anymore. I have done well to keep on my feet with the EDS for 45 years but truly even parked in a disabled bay near the shop is agony these days. This is in the label - trying not to face up to reality, denial and lots of other stuff really. Along with rambling as i cannot sleep and there is no one awake to see me writing my blog. So I feel i can write this here and hopefully it won't be judgement day on the comment front.
I am admiring Veronica's eloquent posts and beautiful layout of photography although must be honest am finding the scrolling photo's a little confusing! I feel like a rubbish blogger in comparison to her wonderful words but I persevere, a word I taught J last week along with many others.
It has taken me ages to post this due to hands etc and loads of stops because of. Because I had bloggers block I felt I should just write even if it were nonsense of sorts to get me going again. I feel better for it!!
7 comments:
hi
i have p.o.ts, i put off using a w-chair for six months. i didnt want to give in. yet when i was to ill to go to appointments i knew i had to. its not so bad. although at the mo, i cant use it due to problems sitting up, so now i would love to use it just to get out! X
I can't help with the comment thingy, Veronica is my 'techie' When I first started blogging I had a notepad next to the computer where I had written down all the various instructions that Vonnie had given me, that way I didn't have to keep on ringing her asking how to upload photos, fix broken links etc etc.
Mmm firemen, Lucky you. I don't like lifts much myself but I don't mind looking at firemen at all lol.
I also only write the barest minimum when it comes to writing about family issues. Needless to say the death of my Mother has made me view certain close family members in a totally different light. Some of them expect me to act like I have lost a pet, rather than my mother. Thankyou for your comment describing your Grandmother's photo it helped me to feel not quite so alone.
Congratulations on the car (yay)
Maybe your husband has probably been thinking about a wheelchair for ages and probably doesn't want to mention it to you. For fear of upsetting you????
xox Take care of yourself, Kim
Thank you both
Re: comments, no idea. Sometimes they can be held if blogger thinks they could be spam.
I'm terrified of getting stuck in a lift. I won't get into one that is over half full just in case. I mean, if I got stuck I'd at least like room to sit down. (crumple down?)
A new car! I'm jealous. Until we get our power steering fixed, I can't even think about learning to drive our automatic. Sigh.
I try very hard not to think about wheelchairs. Eventually I know I'll need one, but I'd prefer to put that off as long as possible. Doing much of anything lately has been hard, let along being upright too, so I'm just pretending I'm better than I am.
And thankyou, for the compliment. If you read my archives, I was nowhere near eloquent! I just go blurb and get it out of my system most days.
Funnily enough I'm having the exact same w'chair issue atm. No easy answers though.
The car sounds fantastically exciting! Are you not getting high rate mobility or need the money to live on?
Thinking of you BG x x x
I think your writing is very eloquent.
I'm so pleased to hear you're getting a new car, I hope it helps.
Firemen eh? Lucky old you! I once locked my carkeys and my then 18 months old son in the car - we had to have the fire brigade out. I have fond memories of it!
Thanks for comments people!!
BSG - top rate need the money hunny!!
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